I need to call the job coach list today, but I have this overwhelming sense of dread. I really don't want to do this. I hate calling people. I know that I am this great and wonderful journalism major that used to call anyone and everyone for information, but I never really liked to do it then, unless I knew them. Talking to strangers makes me nervous. I always end up saying the wrong thing. I prefer writing. It's something I am exceptionally good at and I can edit it and have time to make sure I am saying what I want to say. I feel equal on a page. I don't feel judged. And let's face it, I feel like I have the upper hand. And I need to feel powerful sometimes. People tend to underestimate me, especially if they don't know me. Stupid disability! So, I bucked it up and called three agencies. I set up one face-to-face interview on Monday. And I had a phone interview. It seemed to go well, but when I started to talk about my difficulties I got overly emotional and started to cry. I couldn't stop. It was mortifying! No one is going to hire a big crybaby, but I can't help it. I wish I knew if this could really work. Nothing has.