I thought this was interesing. I read this last weekend. And it has made me think... I am not an expert on relationships; heck, I haven't been on an actual date in over two years. (This doesn't count "hanging out" though. I do that a lot, but dating...) I've always felt weird about my relationships with guys -- even as a teenager. I always felt if not knew something was physically wrong with me...and I've always used that as an excuse. I am not good enough. As I have grown up, I realize how illogical this thinking is. I mean, so my greatest problem is on display for everyone to see. And let's be honest, it turns many guys off right away. But nobody is perfect. Everyone has problems...mine are just a little different. That doesn't make me inadequate. But I can't help feeling that way. Especially after I see all the stress I cause my parents. What's funny is I see that a lot of this stress could have been avoided if my requests for equiptment and accommodations had been heeded. I let myself get weak because I no longer felt safe doing things to make me strong. And I thought this was temporary; silly me! I am starting to do small exercises and lift light weightrs again (I'm starting to get some muscle definition!) and I can feel it coming back. I haven't permanatly lost it...which means I could probably function well with some helps...but since my family won't accommodate me (who love me the best), why would anybody else? I have never felt like anything else but a burden since I got here. Why would anyone else not see me that way? And I don't want to be someone's burden, someone's stress. I don't see myself that way. At least, I try not to see myself that way. But it's hard. Add relationship-deals to it. Ahhhhhhhhhh!