This dating life (or more appropriately, non-dating life)
*This is a blog for the Chronicbabe blog carnival on dating and chronic illness.
I know I'm pretty. Wheelchair or not.
For a long time, I didn't believe it when people would say it.
Even guys.
And boys/men woud tell me that all the time. Still do, actually.
I believe it now.
But I don't want an older man.
And well, that's all I get around here.
I've spent the majority of my life stuck in non-existent relationships in my head with real guys in my life. Yes, it's pathetic. I know.
I think it all comes down to my disability. I really feel no one could love me. I'm damaged. I'm not going to be a baby factory. (I'M LDS, and I feel that is a factor.) I'm in a nursing home for heaven's sake! (Hoefully, not for much longer.) My future is unknown. How can I be close with anyone?
I know I am worthy of love. I have been so lonely lately. I want to meet guys. I'm even considering online dating.
I grew up as an abled person. And I feel inferior traetment, from old friends, society, boys, even from my parents. Maybe this is why I feel the way I do. I don't know.
I just wish I could change the way I feel.
What should I do, so I can feel worthy of love. Any suggestions?
I know I'm pretty. Wheelchair or not.
For a long time, I didn't believe it when people would say it.
Even guys.
And boys/men woud tell me that all the time. Still do, actually.
I believe it now.
But I don't want an older man.
And well, that's all I get around here.
I've spent the majority of my life stuck in non-existent relationships in my head with real guys in my life. Yes, it's pathetic. I know.
I think it all comes down to my disability. I really feel no one could love me. I'm damaged. I'm not going to be a baby factory. (I'M LDS, and I feel that is a factor.) I'm in a nursing home for heaven's sake! (Hoefully, not for much longer.) My future is unknown. How can I be close with anyone?
I know I am worthy of love. I have been so lonely lately. I want to meet guys. I'm even considering online dating.
I grew up as an abled person. And I feel inferior traetment, from old friends, society, boys, even from my parents. Maybe this is why I feel the way I do. I don't know.
I just wish I could change the way I feel.
What should I do, so I can feel worthy of love. Any suggestions?
Do you find having a religious belief greatly reduces your dating options?
I know I did. I did eventually find a wonderful guy who accepts my disability and who shares my christian beliefs.
My problem was also finding a guy who could handle that I might not be able to have kids, but at the same time who will share in my happiness if I can have them. Most guys either really want kids, or they really don't want kids. Been very hard to find middle ground.
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Yes, I do thik my religous prefrence severely limit my datin, especially at my age -- 33.
I could write 50 blog entries about mormon dating and I promise we'd still both be confused.
And the kid issue is a ver big deal in our religion.
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